Saturday, March 27, 2010

Hobbits and Silly Old Bears~

 There is a magic in that little world, home; it is a mystic circle that surrounds comforts and virtues never known beyond its hallowed limits.
~ Robert Southey

 I am getting to light like a butterfly in my own home for a few days.
This I love.
I am a homebody.

Once long ago,
as I was complaining about just wanting to get home from an excursion of some kind,
my oldest son exclaimed,
"Mom, you sound just like Bilbo Baggins..."

He was right, of course.
In another world, I am a hobbit.
Not a very beautiful creature but a loyal, steady one.
And just as poor Bilbo was lured away from hearth and home,
I, too, have ventured out
all the while complaining and grumbling
only to find a very grand adventure....
Ok, so now I'm starting to sound like Pooh...
"Oh, bother..."
Well, any way back to the subject at hand....
"Think, think, think..."

I think I am glad for all these trials of late...
(No, I am not trying to play Pollyanna's Glad Game)
If Steve had not lost his job, if we had not needed health insurance, if, if, if...
I would not be back in school,
I would not be working at the Center for Pediatric Medicine,
I would not have met even more amazing people...
and the list could go on and on...

About right now I feel like singing Garth Brook"s song,
Thank God for Unanswered Prayers.
But, not to worry,
you are safe.
I will not.

Suffice it to say, His Word is true,
"All things work for good
(not all things are good but they work for good )
for those that love the Lord and are called according to His purpose.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

The Princess of Quite A lot~

If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it.
  ~Mary Engelbreit ~

looking out the window,
watching the cool wind blow,
looking around my house, I feel as if I've been gone...
for quite a while...
Spring is almost here,

As I wander around,
straightening the piles of mess
which have accumulated,
it's funny
it just seems so...

Long ago, my sister in law talked about finding a new normals...
Isn't that just life?
Over and over and over again,
we find new normals.
 If we stop,
we get left behind....

When Steve lost his job,
he found a new normal as Mr Mom.
That must have been excruciating
especially since
 I was less than happy about this change of events...

I was happy before.
I was comfortable before...

I loved being a stay at home wife and mother,
home school teacher and volunteer.
Why, I was a princess, you know.

I still was many of those things,
but now it was different.
Inwardly, I stressed,
I mourned,
I pouted,
and fumed...
I didn't want to change...
and I didn't want things to change at all!

It's funny how often life really doesn't care how I feel.
Apparently, it's not all about me!

 I hasten to add that I believe in a divine plan.
This comforts me tremendously.
 I believe, small as I am,
God has a spot that only I can fill.
And so it seems,
I am still a princess,
just a working one.

I can see His Hand,
in new friends,
in a new vision,
and a plan for the future that never would have happened
had not my life changed,
had not my comfort level and security been shattered completely.

I would not have had to be so rudely awakened had I not been so content,
so comfortable,
so cozy.
Snug as a bug in a rug...

I doubt I will ever like change
but I think I am learning to live with it...
Now, if I can just get a little more settled...
I think I found a new rug...

Thursday, March 11, 2010

In order to change we must be sick and tired of being sick and tired." ~Author Unknown

"A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor's book. " ~Irish Proverb

I hope so; I really do 'cos I'm plum wore out.
plum wore out.

While this semester in school has been very enlightening,
it has also been exhausting!

I have thoroughly enjoyed the professional development portion.
Very eye opening....
( why does there always have to be a but)
an additional eighty hours of clinical 
over and above forty hours of work 
has produced 
a ragged nurse, 
a stressed out student,
a pathetic mother,
an absent wife,
an erractic blogger,
and a woman who is just plain tuckered out.

I have started a new blog
(in all my spare time).
It's for my nursing informatics class but I find it fascinating.
It's called Nurse's Watch

It is a blog devoted to the relevancy of blogging to nursing;
I get to visit all kinds of nursing blogs and try and figure out why nurses blog.
This is oh so fun and enlightening.

So that's about all. 
Bye yall.

"If by gaining knowledge we destroy our health, 
we labour for a thing that will be useless in our hands."
  ~John Locke


Sunday, March 7, 2010

One must ask children and birds how cherries and strawberries taste. ~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe ~

Thunderous footsteps trample through the house,
  while urgent voices exclaim,

"The ice cream truck is coming!"
"The ice cream truck is coming!"
The familiar tune echos through the air...
Indeed spring must be on the way.

Friday, March 5, 2010

I believe in prayer. It's the best way we have to draw strength from heaven. ~Josephine Baker~


Sweet Jesus, comfort my friends tonight.
Life hangs heavy.
It is so hard.
I am thankful when we know not what to pray
 the Holy Spirit intercedes on our behalf.
Sweet Jesus, comfort my friends tonight...